I'M TIRED. MOVE ON ! /
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Assalamualaikum
So yeah tiba-tiba jauh dalam pelusuk hati gua, gua rasa something. Lagi kuat rasa tu bila gua ber-whatsapp dengan best buddy gua. Sampai rasa tak ada mood langsung nak layan budak gedik gila dwaeji sorang tu. ((Aku bukan move on sebab dah ada boyfriend or whatsoever. Just tired)) But btw mesti ade orang kata hang tu budak-budak lagi. Ye bang ye kak, maaf kan saya. Saya bodoh.
Time sekolah rendah, dia hensem doh. Wah wah wahhhhh
Form 1, wuuuu bila lah boleh start cakap dengan dia. hahahaha ((Tengok dari jauh))
Form 2, still tak bercakap but then berani kan diri tegur dekat facebook. What a great feeling when he noticed me ((feeling wonderful))
Form 3, kawan sekelas tapi jarang tegur. Jarang sangat. Boleh kira. First time keluar study sama-sama dekat library. Tu pun sebab pmr dan beramai-ramai.
Form 4, jarang tegur mula-mula but then near end of the year berkawan. Berkawan ... macam kawan rapat. Terharu.
Form 5, rapat, selalu keluar sama-sama. Perasaan berubah 360 darjah but actually since form 2 , i guess. Form 5 beranikan diri sebab last year dekat sekolah sama. 22.6.2013, yes i remember that date.
Habis sekolah still contact, and yes, he is my best buddy. So far, one of my best boy friend that i ever had. Yes, i'm happy. Too happy until i forget that i love him more than HIM. The one and only one. My greatest creator. Teruknya aku :(
Banyak kali aku cuba buang perasaan bongok tu. Hahaha but i can't. Even if i tried hard, so hard, i failed. But today, don't know why and how, when i talked about him to my best buddy, aku rasa menyampah. Menyampah dengan dia. Sangat ! Sekarang baru aku sedar. Yes, i'm stupid dumb-dumb. Too dumb to realize that this is one-sided-love. Actually dah lama realize. hahahahahaha. k sambung drama.
I'm done. Esok dah masuk April. Maybe dah sampai masa nya. Buang semua pasal dia, gambar and everything. Yes, he's still my friend. But not too close like before, i'll try my best. If you read this, i hope you understand why i did this. This is tiring. Hoping for someone that will never be mine, never. Ibarat mengharap Ljoe jadi suami gua ! kehkeh. Awak tolong saye jauhkan diri dari awak kay? Yes, you ruined my life ! But thank you jugak sebab aku merasa suka dekat someone. Haks. Thank you for everything and i love you for the last time as a friend ofcourse this time :P (( NO ! Just don't feel bad for me. Don't feel sorry for me. I don't need that, anymore))
Sincerely,
(Your ex-secret admire)
*nearly cried mofo, this post is shit*
